This will be short and sweet.. I will elaborate later. Today was my very last treatment for breast cancer. 16 chemo treatments, 33 radiation treatments... 8 months later...I am done!!! I should say WE are done. I did not do this alone by any means. My little engine that could organized me a celebration party with some family tonight. I just thought we were going over for pizza with Katie Thomas and Derek. My parents and Glenn's parents were already there. I was so surprised!!
At the Cancer Center today, Glenn met me. The radiation team graduated me with a song, a balloon and a diploma. I got to ring the bell symbolizing my completion. It has been a very emotional day. Bitter sweet kind of. I have to sit back and allow all of this to sink in. I feel right now that I have my life back and I'm gona enjoy it!!
Pictures I promise. Stay with me .
Love to ALL...Mel
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I had no idea so many people are following my blog. Almost weekly I have someone tell that they are keeping up with me. I guess if I can inspire or encourage others, then this has been my purpose.
As of today I have 4 radiation treatments left!!! 4!! I started out with 33!!! WOW it is hard to believe it is almost over. Last week when I saw my doctor I was trying to tell her how crazy I feel. I can't sleep, I ache, I cry...she said it is all normal. She said listen, " your body has gone through dramatic change over the last 8 months. You have had hormonal, chemical physical and mental changes. It will take a few months once we are finished with everything to get you back to a normal state". On thinking about this, she is exactly right. I am messed up!!!
It has defiantly been a struggle for most days. I try so hard to keep up a good appearance. For the most part I do feel OK...just most everyday, by the end of the day I am struggling more. I just keep on going. I'm tired of my life being held back. I miss having fun and being lively. I mostly miss cooking and being with my family sharing a good meal and being together. I used to cook a lot more and have my kids over and just enjoy laughing and having fun... not so much right now. I just can't seem to get the cooking thing back. Most people would be ok with that...not me (well sometime).
I fell like I am missing out o life right now. I have a wedding coming up in 4 weeks.. I got to get it together. I should be feeling much better by then. I better be.. it will be a long day of celebrations.
My radiation treatments have not caused me many problems. The only thing is of right now my bad boob is a complete brown slightly sunburned look. It is tender where the lymph nodes were removed. That is the spot they are concentrating the last 5 treatments. I am still so thankful. I have seen a couple of my friends that are going through the same and they are in misery. They got a lot more burned than I have been. I am so thankful. God is still with me.
I think I mentioned before about my hair coming back... it is really growing and very curly. It seems to be stunted on the very top.. it is very slow coming in, so I still have a mullett look... very sexy. My new eyelashes are much thicker and long than previously.. I certainly don't ave to use as much mascara as before. I'm going to make an appointment to get my brows waxed. They are crazy!!! I am delighted!!!
I know many women are going though what I have gone though and I know many prayers have been said on my behalf. Thank you so much for that. I could not get though without your diligence. I will ask you to add two friends to your prayers, Jane and Maria. They are going though breast cancer and treatments. Let's pray for their health, wellbeing, and their families.
Gonna go now... going into later this morning.. I am trying half days until the end. I just get too tired and weary if I work all day.
God bless you all and have an awesome day!!!!!
Loves and hugs.. Mel
As of today I have 4 radiation treatments left!!! 4!! I started out with 33!!! WOW it is hard to believe it is almost over. Last week when I saw my doctor I was trying to tell her how crazy I feel. I can't sleep, I ache, I cry...she said it is all normal. She said listen, " your body has gone through dramatic change over the last 8 months. You have had hormonal, chemical physical and mental changes. It will take a few months once we are finished with everything to get you back to a normal state". On thinking about this, she is exactly right. I am messed up!!!
It has defiantly been a struggle for most days. I try so hard to keep up a good appearance. For the most part I do feel OK...just most everyday, by the end of the day I am struggling more. I just keep on going. I'm tired of my life being held back. I miss having fun and being lively. I mostly miss cooking and being with my family sharing a good meal and being together. I used to cook a lot more and have my kids over and just enjoy laughing and having fun... not so much right now. I just can't seem to get the cooking thing back. Most people would be ok with that...not me (well sometime).
I fell like I am missing out o life right now. I have a wedding coming up in 4 weeks.. I got to get it together. I should be feeling much better by then. I better be.. it will be a long day of celebrations.
My radiation treatments have not caused me many problems. The only thing is of right now my bad boob is a complete brown slightly sunburned look. It is tender where the lymph nodes were removed. That is the spot they are concentrating the last 5 treatments. I am still so thankful. I have seen a couple of my friends that are going through the same and they are in misery. They got a lot more burned than I have been. I am so thankful. God is still with me.
I think I mentioned before about my hair coming back... it is really growing and very curly. It seems to be stunted on the very top.. it is very slow coming in, so I still have a mullett look... very sexy. My new eyelashes are much thicker and long than previously.. I certainly don't ave to use as much mascara as before. I'm going to make an appointment to get my brows waxed. They are crazy!!! I am delighted!!!
I know many women are going though what I have gone though and I know many prayers have been said on my behalf. Thank you so much for that. I could not get though without your diligence. I will ask you to add two friends to your prayers, Jane and Maria. They are going though breast cancer and treatments. Let's pray for their health, wellbeing, and their families.
Gonna go now... going into later this morning.. I am trying half days until the end. I just get too tired and weary if I work all day.
God bless you all and have an awesome day!!!!!
Loves and hugs.. Mel
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