ok. if you notice bad grammar, it is because i am having to use one hand, so ignore, caps or the lack of etc,.
well been a long time hasn't it. i hit writers block..or maybe no time or just ignoring it all. it is January .wow where did the last year go...sorry no question marks either. i ll get to the reason later..that's a whole other blog. i will have to change the title.
we got through christmas..it was wonderful. so so much to be thankful for. we made it through the worst year of my life. at everyday,,i stopped and remembered what had gone on this date..a year ago. my first onc. appt, having my power port put in, surgery to remove the bad tumor, jan. me, sharon, katie and derek going wig shopping. me and sharon...going to have all my hair cut off..wow really..wow.
it did take one year from start to finish..to get almost back to normal. my body..oh my gosh.that is the worst. you see i was in great shape before all this happened. i felt good, i was going to the gym,,i was good. after the chemo...i lost it all. i mean all folks. i didn't exercise at all,,glenn tells me now that i really ate..alot. so i lost all my muscle tone, i gained 15 pounds and aged 10 yrs. i know...i am thankful i came out with only minor stuff. so i had made it my mission to get back in shape, back in my clothes..which spandex and spanx oner size long shirts are now my fashion statement.
i turn 50 in march and i really wanted to be looking good and havesome muscles back. i mean right now i cannot squat down and push back up...i have to grab something and pull me back up..crazy.
i finally decided to get serious about this last week. i started really watching my diet. started doing pilates in the mornings and looking forward to the rain to stop so i could get out and walk again. i lost 5 lbs in 2 weeks and i felt good about myself again.
ok. so things are going good. i feel good at long last, i have my energy back, i am having good hair again.. i am loving my job,,good good good.
last thursday night we began getting snow. i love snow. i love to sit in my sun room, snowroom..everything that it is. i couldnt see the snoe because my outside lights would no stay on. my like a child was excited. i put my slippers n and step outside to get the motion light to come on....yippeee. i see snow.
here is where it all changes.
i step back in...i remeber going down,,forward..i see my left shoulder hitting the sofa arm..it did not give at all. i felt pain arm, hip and knee. i lay there in complete shock and pain. i immediately start this...ohohohoh..sort of whimpering sound. glenn was in the back..actually he said..mid stream. he comes walking in the room with a little concerned laugh..he thought i had hit my toe or something simple. i was on the floor afraid to move. finally he got me sitting, then in a chair. i just knew i did something bad. i felt around my shoulder i just felt a little crackle, thank goodness there were no bones sticking out anywhere, glenn would of been laid out on the floor
we decided to call thomas..my doctor son n law, who is just a few minutes away, he and katie came right over. he injected my shoulder with numbing meds to help ease the pain. katie was his assistant..she sprayed the freezi stuff so i could't feel the needle as bad,,he forgot to tell her to stop..so i have a little freezer burn. i did't feel the needle!.
we went to the ER. x-rays, morphine, a sling, another immobilizing band. a minimally displaced fracture of greater turbicle humurol head. something like that. i got home. thomas lined me up with a co worker a shoulder specialist. said to keep it still, see him again friday and then see what else if any needs to be done. yay for me!!!!! i am having to very slowly wear glenn's button shirts. can't dry my hair and style it with my brush,,so i am having really bad hair...but wait..i still have wigs!!!!!! not gonna happen.
so yes this is a major set back for me. no exercising,,,no muscle toning,,just getting weaker and flabbier. another winter of not being able to anything i want. of course my legs are good. i guess i could still do some walking. jut don't touch my arm.
hopefully i can get to work and do something worthwhile. so i am having a little trouble having a real good attitude right now. i know i still have a lot to be grateful for. i'm trying.
i feel a nap now...think it's the pain meds..yes it helps, could't make it without it,
ok...we'll see what happens. have an awesome week
