Well it is happening......I am starting to feel the effects of this chemo round. Yes I am just going to complain. I am not going to say " I am doing really good" when someone asks me. Oh I know it is not really really bad....but I just don't like it! I am slow getting up and down. I walk slow...I have always been a really fast walker. I feel like I am carrying weights on my arms and legs.....but I'm not getting the benefits from that. No instead I have put on a few extra pounds! What? I thought when you go thru chemo you lose weight. I should be quiet and be thankful I am not sick and lose weight that way. My doctor M. said most women with breast cancer gain weight while on chemo. Great.
I have a goal when I get well. I want to really get back in shape, have some nice muscular arms instead of flab, and try to get into running a little more and do some runs. Oh and belly fat..don't forget belly fat...me and my sister were comparing our bellys the other day....we will work on that too. We will see how it goes but this is something I really want to do for myself.
I have four treatments to go...four!!! I can't believe how fast the last five months have gone by. I am really almost finished.
Another thing I don't like are these...summer moments...power surges...hot flashes!!!! My hormones are just all out of whack. One minute I'm freezing..the next I am having a meltdown. They are mainly at night. I wonder why that is. So Glenn is real happy about all that. I cry, I fan, I am a mess. At least he likes it real cold at night..now so do I.
Glenn and I went to Waynesville this past weekend, to spend some time with the boy..Derek. It was good to see him. I really miss him. There is not so much to do around there. We usually like to go hiking and find some interesting places to see. Oh but no, I had to feel like a 100 year old woman moving around. Hiking? are you kidding? I barely made it just walking on the side walk down town trying to do a little shopping in Mast General Store. I had to go back to the place we stayed and rest the whole afternoon.
My legs and arms just won't co-operate. OK four more...four more.
We stayed at the most peaceful place. I found a good deal at the Waynesville Inn Golf Resort....ha! You may of heard of it or you may of stayed there. It is a historical golfing inn. Yes there were a lot of guys there...having guy weekend and golfing. Our room was right on the fairway...we had a little patio right on the greens. it was so peaceful sitting there watching the ducks land on the little pond and all the birds flying around. The room was just ok....we were able to take our dog Abby...when we checked in they were going to upgrade us to the fancy main Inn but we couldn't have pets. Oh well...the peacefulness outweighed the room. Oh and we also got a free breakfast buffet in the Inn each morning. It was very nice.
Katie had given me a one day cleaning and organizing coupon for Mothers day. When we got back home yesterday my house was a mazing. She had cleaned and mostly she had organized my spare closets and rooms. Mind you now..she does not like clutter. I said just clean out. She did and she labeled things and got rid of things.....her words....".you will never miss anything". I am forever grateful to her!!
So here I sit..outside enjoying my new patio. I am a very blessed person despite it all. I do have pictures of all our new doings...just don't have them on here yet. I am trying. Maybe I will get my nerve up to ask Glenn to help me tonight.
I look around and I see all the blessings God has put in my life and I am so thankful. Even though I have this cancer thing...I am still very grateful for God's goodness in my life.
I will post more later....I still have more to say from the heart but I don't want to bore you to much at one time. Remember I am an emotional wreck right now...so who knows what will come spewing forth next time. :)
Loves and hugs to you all, Mel
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