no more pity parties...now

Well...let me just say this....I have no excuse not to take my dog for a walk.  I am ashamed of myself.  I have been sitting around in lounge clothes for the past two weeks waiting to feel really bad, sick, pain..anything.  OK..don't get me wrong..I have had a share of nausea, just needing to take a few daily naps, a few killer headaches, but nothing more.  

Glenn and I have been preparing oursleves when the day comes that I can hardly pick my head off the pillow,  I can't reach a skillet to cook from, I can't unload one dish from the dishwasher..etc  How he will be my hero and step in and take care of my every whim. (or whin).

Well  news flash!!!  my oncologist(cancer doctor) told me today to forget it sista...if it ain't happend by now, it ain't going to!!   What!!!   you mean...all this worry for nothing?  I'm not going to be pitiful? and needy and have people make over me...and say oh poor thing..she looks so pitiful?

Thank You my Dear Heavely Father!!!  You have again answered my prayers.  My prayer mainly for my family, that they would will not have to see me sick and weak, that my husband would not have to wait on me and hear me whinny (well some).

Today, my doctor..Dr M.  told me that the first few days and first week after chemo, would be my worst.  Then each day would get better until the next treatment.   I guess I didn't hear this when I first started.  WOW were we so surprised today to hear this.   I was a little nauseated tired and just grumpy that first weak...I feel awesome today!!!

She asked me about mouth sores because right now would be when I would start getting them if I got them.  This was one of the main  side effects I had been dreading..forget going bald...I didn't want to have to miss a meal!!    I have just some very light tenderness in my gums and alitte on my tongue.  Other than that no big deal!

So Glenn did have to be with me today and hear all this...even the part about I need to start walking and exercising a littte again,  that I can do for myself and not be all pitiful like I was this morning when I could barely get the words out.."Glennie Poo...can you pleeze fix me an egg sandwich?   I just feel tired".

So,  I am certainly not healed, I have 15 more chemo treatments to go before that part is over, next month may be totally different.  I will take my good news and my hats and my wig and wear them in style and yes even walk...and do more housework.  I am more than excited too.   I have much to be thankful for today.

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

New International Version (NIV)

¹⁶ Rejoice always, ¹⁷ pray continually, ¹⁸ give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

Loves and hugs..Mel