The past few days have been great. I feel normal. I almost forgot how to feel normal..I have been waiting to feel abnormal or just waiting for something to let me know that I am sick. I know I am sick...I have a disease..I call it chuck...I don't even want to give it any kind of recognition by calling it by its name.
This whole thing is weird. I really don't know what I'm supposed to do. I went to work last week. I worked 3 half days and felt really good. I was tired because I didn't get my naps in. I haven't figured out how I am supposed to feel yet. I know I keep saying this and my readers have no idea what I mean. I can't explain it. I think it is like...on the outside I am still me..but on the inside I am not sure how I am supposed to be. I forget I am sick when I feel good. I don't think about it,,,things seem normal. Then I will go to the mirror and I see my buzzed head or my wig or my glow worm head..and I remember...oh yea....I do not have a normal life and I never will.
So I make my life now..normal. I think this is what I mean...I have a different normal life now. It's not so bad. So far.
God has answered so many prayers for me...Derek got a good partime job last week, Katie and I found a wonderful lady to help with a major wedding detail.
I feel calmness inside. I know why.
Have a wonderful day. Love to all. Mel
Philippians 4:7
King James Version (KJV)
7And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus
Glad you're feeling good. Now, get out of bed! :)
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