gone wild

Well...I guess all this chemo is starting to affect my mood, hormones, everything.  My doc said it would throw my body right into menopause, not gradually, like normal people, but fast.  Great.  Is that why I have been so bitchy the last week  or so?   Glenn is ready to kick me out.   Anybody got an extra room for a few weeks?  I don't mean to be grouchy...it just comes out that way.

 Could it be to that I am going stir crazy being at home everyday?  I try to get out several days a week.  I stay busy.  Am I supposed to have dinner cooked everyday just because I am at home?  I don't know the rules of all this.

I did get a personal training session for  a home work out the other night.  I'm excited about that.  I like working out and have missed it. I realize just because I am "sick"  I can still be in shape.  I really want to start running a little again.   I have always had a goal of being a runner and doing some runs.  I think I can do this.  Wish I had someone that wanted to do this with me????

Ok so men don't understand us women anyway...I sometimes don't even understand us.  Throw a total major life change illness, total self image downer, hormones gone wild and  see what happens.  I guess most of the time it is easiest to lash out on the ones that are closest to us.  I need a prayer of patience and calmness so I will be nice.

Happy Friday everyone.  I'm going to go work on my nice skills.

Loves and hugs,  Mel