Happy Monday everyone!!! I am doing my usual....got my laptop on my breakfast tray on my bed blogging, trying to have coffee and a little news. Please pray for Glenn, he just left to go to Baptist hospital to have his cataract surgery.He has had such a hard time with his vision..we hope he will be able to have great vision now.
I it another bump in my detour this weekend. As you know my hair has been gradually falling out. It really started last week. Well this weekend..yesterday..I can safely say I have about 15% of my hair left!! I washed and rubbed and rubbed in the shower until I couldn't see anymore coming out.... so I thought that would be a good place to stop. I can't bear to look so I quickly covered my head with with a towel while I got the rest of me ready. I finally got my nerve to unwrap the towel and see the damage. I just saw alot of fuzzy springs and alot of baldness. Well.....ok...so I look like a 100 year old little man or woman. I got a couple of large brown flat moles that aren't very pretty..other than that oh well!! I didn't cry, I didn't freak. It is what it is. But the more I looked at myself..I see a stranger. Who is this face in my mirror? I hardly remember what I looked like before. I did have hair, I was healthy and I was normal. Ok OK.......it's going to be ok. So now I need to figure out a way to get used to seeing me with no hair..do I keep it covered? Do I wear my wig...do I go all natural? Not all natural yet. I can't let Glenn see my like this...yet.
So....I put on my make up as usual...but wait...I have a problem..how far do I go up with my foundation now? Never thought I would have this problem. So I guess I do it the same way as usual I just have more area to cover....I know ya don't put it on your head!!!! Ok..so I do my make up , mascara, put pink dangle earrings in, my white hat and a pink flower stuck on the side. I was ready!!
When time to go to bed came last night..I was in a dilemma...you see. Glenn wears a CPAP to help him sleep so he can breathe. If you don't know how this looks...let me describe. We call it his darthvader mask. Or Octopus on the face...you get the picture. It is not sexy. So every night he waits until I am asleep or we are ready to turn the lights off and quit talking then he will put it on....to spare me!!!
So I got my nerve up last night to show him my head. He just hugged me and said it will grow back. Of course I had to have a little melt down....no better place than in his strong arms.
Of course we had to find some humor in this moment. I told him now we would have to see who could hold out the longest on getting our heads ready at night. Does Darth Vader get his on first and will he get his pulled off first at first light in the morning or will it be Glow worm reaching for my soft fuzzy glow worm hat to put on before the first peeps of sun rays come thru?
Either way..it is true love.
Have a great day...love and hugs...Mel
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