here we go again

Today I am feeling very anxious.  I go to the Cancer Center and start on a brand new regimen of chemo treatments.  I have all finished with the first three months of  the worst.   Thank you Lord that it really wasn' that bad for me!!  The next three months, I will be going once a week for the new drugs.  The doctor tells me it has different side effects.  I should not be as nauseated is the main one.  But it does cause alot of peripheral neuropthy which means numbness, tingling pain in my hands, legs and feet.  Great!!!!  It has potential side effects  such as allergic reactions during transfusion.  Oh boy..I can hardly wait.

Hopefully it will go as well as the first three months.  I think it is the unknown that I am more afraid of.  Plus knowing how crappy I have felt for about 1/12 weeks after my previous treatments and I don't want to feel that way all the time with these treatments being so frequent.

Oh well  I will just do what it takes.  God will see me through.  He has never let me down.

It has been a hard week.  My son Derek lost a good friend in a single car accident Sunday afternoon.  I just wanted to drive the 4 hours and go to him and his friends and help them through this.  He can't talk about it to me yet..so he has texted me a bout a little.  He said he needed to come home so he is coming this weekend for a few days.  I just feel so sad for him and their group of friends.  He helped clean out her apartment this week and is just having a real hard time.  Please keep him and the Deese family in your prayers during this tragic time.  It kinda makes me mad I can't just drive to see him for a few days cause I gotta go get treated!!!  It is an inconvenience, this (chuck)!!!

Then my Dad is having a heart catherization done Friday morning and I can't be with him and my family.  So I am having a little whining session this morning.  I will get over it...I have to remember to just stop and look around at all my blessings I have right in front of me an when I do that I am so thankful and blessed.  Of course Glenn sees me like this and he hands me a tissue and says all the right things and makes it all better.

So it's almost time to go....I pray it will go well.  Thank you all for being with me.

LOves and hugs..Melanie

Psalm 27:1 The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?