Yay!!!! It's finally Friday.....you know the song. I do love Fridays too. It has been an uneventful week. This both good and not so good. Everything with me has been good. I have been feeling good, finally got some good energy back and I have been doing a little yard work.
The bad part is..no workers on our new room this week. They told me it would be a few days before they could get back..I am getting so impatient!!! I feel like I can't do anything in the house until its done. I guess I still need to try...the pollen is really building up!!!
So today I find myself wondering where or what my role in this cancer (chuck) thing is going. It has been almost 3 1/2 months since those life changing words were said to me. Really!! It has been that long? Many things have changed since then. I took a leave from work, my family has become closer, once again through tragedy, nothing is the same!!
Sure we all go about our daily lives as usual...but the fear of what I am going through is not far for us all. The constant reminder for me is when I look in the mirror. So now I know I have no hair...the fury friends are fast becoming my best friends. I am getting more used to them....just pull on and go!!!
I am finding that it is taking more time to put my make up on now. My eyebrows are getting very thin so I am trying to learn to use an eyebrow pencil and pencil some on! Not too bad. I have hardly any eye lashes..so forget the mascara. I am using twice as much eye liner now. When ya do it just right..it doesn't look half bad!
The other night I went to a dinner and beef butchering demo..yes that's what I said. A girl sitting behind me said to me.." I love your hair...it is such a cute hair style" I just smiled and said thank you. She had no idea!
Through this all I am overjoyed almost daily by the good people out there who continue to show love and concern for me. The past two Sundays Glenn has brought home meals prepared by friends from church that are cooked and prepared meals for us to stick in the freezer or have fresh for all week. WOW!!! Thank you. Almost everyday I go to the mailbox and have at least 1-2 cards. I get cards from church, friends, family and occasionally from people I have never met! Yes!! I know where the connection is though. How nice this is.. When I read these I am always very touched and feel so blessed. I even have gotten a couple cards from patients I know at work.
To me this is all so special......these people are taking a few minutes of their time to let me know they are thinking of me! This is huge. I cannot say how much joy and love this brings me.
All these leads to me to wonder.."what is my role in all this"? I feel like I should be doing something back. I want to send everyone a thank-you card that sends me a card... I know usually some people undergoing somethings such as I am, find something from it and use it and change something or make something happen...I just haven't figured out what that something is for me. Maybe it is nothing. Maybe it is just me blogging and trying to be inspirational for others and for myself...just to get thru this. I don't know. I do know my life is being molded and changed by God's hands somehow thru all of you.
So the first three months of chemo are done. Next Thursday starts my new treatment of going for treatments once a week for another 3 months. I pray that the new treatments treat me as good as the last once did. I am a little worried..I don't know what to expect yet. I know God and my friends and family will get me through this too.
Again God's timing is perfect. I get to be home and enjoy Spring springing which really perks me up. I am so thankful for this. I am so thankful my workplace is working with me and I am able to be home during all this time.
Have a wonderful weekend everyone.
Loves and hugs...Mel
Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the LORD with all your heart; and lean not upon your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct your path.” (~ KJV Ad
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